On that day,

I felt something is missing,

not just a part of me,

everything seem to be wrong,

but i cant tell what, 

weak, emotional wreck

Waiting and waiting,

when it came,

turned out it's not from you,

i've so much to tell,

to share my stories,

sadly, i've to keep it,

to myself

For eyes to see,

fovea must works well,

for ears to hear,

there're timpani membrane,

to smell,

one needs olfactory organs,

without ribcage,

lungs will stay still,

without joints,

the whole body cant move

I learned that,

for heart to function well,

it needs pacemaker,

to create enough force,

supplying blood to whole body

A damage to a lobe of a brain,

can cause malfunction to our body,

just imagine how,

whole system wont work,

without complete lobes

You're my pacemaker,

part of my lobes,

part of my eyes,

my ears, 

every cells and organs i have

You're my missing piece,

just imagine,

how will i be without you

I love you 

I'm sorry :(

I'm sorry I'm bad

I'm sorry you're blue 

I'm sorry about all the things I said to you

And I know I can't take it back

I love how you kiss

I love all your sounds

and baby the way you make my world go round

And I just wanted to say I'm sorry

Full of regrets

My dad once told me, when someone is not in his/her perfect emotion, being mad at you, you should never say a word, because once you say anything, that will just make the situation becoming worse and worse.  It's like adding kerosene to the fire.  Instead, i should just keep what i want to say to myself, that's more like adding water to the fire.  Fire and fire wont work together-i forgot that.

I admit it, i've never act like a grown up man like you always want.  I just want my desire to be fulfilled without thinking of yours.  That's not make any sense in a relationship.  So far, this is the worst outbreak in our relationship.  I've never experience any like this before.


I know it's my fault.  Started with ignoring you on skype :( At that time, i just cant control my feeling.  I was sleepy, tired and when you answered me like that, i dont know why i am so sensitive that night. I'm sorry dear.


Things maybe will be better if i gave you some times to yourself yesterday.  But i didnt consider to give you  any and kept on texting you.  It's like i forced you to text me though i know you're not in the right mood.  You can blame me 100%  for what had happened on us for not being understanding.


There are a lot for me to change to be a better boyfriend of yours.  Could you forgive me for what i've done.  You're strong, you've being beside me through thick and thin.  No matter how i've disappoint you, you always be there.  I know this time, you are disappointed at me more than before.  I've no intention to make you sad.  Could you please forgive me and give me chance to fix our relationship that i've messed up.

“Every couple has ups and downs, every couple argues, and that’s the thing—you’re a couple, and couples can’t function without trust.” 
― Nicholas Sparks, At First Sight

“Every couple needs to argue now and then. Just to prove that the relationship is strong enough to survive. Long-term relationships, the ones that matter, are all about weathering the peaks and the valleys.” 
― Nicholas Sparks, Safe Haven

“Forgive the past. It is over. Learn from it and let go. People are constantly changing and growing. Do not cling to a limited, disconnected, negative image of a person in the past. See that person now. Your relationship is always alive and changing.” 

I'm not sure when you'll read this.  Maybe for now you don't want to hear anything from me, but if you read it later, i hope everything will be back to normal.  I miss you so much.  I miss your smile, i miss to hear you laugh, i miss everything about you.  And please, tell me that your tweets aren't true.  I want us to be us like before.  We tell stories to each other, laugh together, jokes around, act silly, being childish and be our true selves.  I want to be the one that will laugh and cry with you, going through good and hard times together.


You asked me why i fall for you, it's hard for me to explain why because i just did what my heart told me.  Started with texting each other, that already make me feel comfortable with you and being myself.  That's me who're childish all the time, playful and not serious.  I'm sorry if im not up to your expectation but i believe that, experiences and times will teach me to be a better man.


I'm sorry sayang :( i want you to know that i love you so much and i miss you :( 

“I may not always be with you 

But when we're far apart

Remember you will be with me

Right inside my heart” 

I totally regret for what i've done.  I hope there's still chance for me to make everything right.

Give me chance to light up your world like before

I love you so much Nur Liyana Amin

You :)

Dear girlfriend,

This guy want to say something.

He wants to say :

I love you :)

Taken in bulb mode with : 

Holga 135BC+Holga 12MFC 

+Shutter release cable+tripod

loaded with Fuji Superia 200

Equation

Sweet + heart = <3

I hope and pray that you're mine to keep.

Ive no guts to tell anyone what i feel now and maybe i need someone to talk to.  I wish my dad is here with me so that i can talk to him in person.  He always treat me like his best friend and yes, i'm comfortable with that.  All things seem not right to me.  Hardly can focus on my study these few days.

Can i say that i'm suffering from lovesick?  Distance are torturing me right now.  I feel like you're getting further away from me or is it just my feeling?  Just hope that there are still sparks to ignite the fire.  Sometimes, i feel i'm just like a candle.  When the wind blows strongly, *puff the light goes off and when it's kept properly, the light stays.  I myself do not understand my own feeling right now.  It's too complicated.  All i want is to be with you, where distance is nothing to our relationship.

On this beautiful night, i gaze at the stars.  They are just like you-very beautiful. Shining brightly from afar.  But, looking at them make me sad.  Reminds me of how we spent our times together when i'm just beside you, just two of us :( people says distance can't separate you from the one whom you love, however, for me distance separate me from the one i love.  It makes me to suffer like this.  Luckily there's this feeling-missing you.  With that feeling, i found you inside my heart, very close to me.

I admit that i'm a weak person.  I cant endure this kind of feeling, how am i going to go through this when u're in india next year. hmm Just pray that i'll become stronger.

I miss you so much :(

Love you always

Happy birthday doctor :)

This special post is dedicated to a very special girl

To my dearest Nana,

I've known you since you're 7, today, you've turned 19 and it's different now, after 12 years.
The girl whom i seldom talked to last time is the one who i want to see everyday now.

Happy birthday sayang, and may this year bring you the very best life has to offer.  May you'll achieve your target, all A's in A level exam :) good health and happiness.

This year will be another year that i'll love you more and more :)

I've nothing to give as presents but, i can give you my gift of love because you're the gift in my life

Happy birthday my love :)

For you to know, my heart for you will never break. My smile for you will never fade. My love for you will never end. I love you so much

I would love to capture more of your pictures using analog camera :) Though we'll change, the pictures remain the same, so do the memories.  It's worth than thousand words.  I love you so much