This is not a goodbye

When this post is published, i'll be on the plane to Jakarta.

It's sad to leave ur hometown, ur country when u've to go to somewhere else to further ur study.  When i was still a kid, i believe it's everyone's ambition to become an oversea student.  But when u're one, it sucks!!

I've to leave my family and friends behind. Oh not forgetting my girlfriend :) it's sad. really sad.

it's my 2nd year now and the first time i bid farewell to everyone, i nearly cried. *i really cried actually.

Dah la girlfriend was not able to send me at the airport.  Couldnt see her face for the last time on that day.  And this year, i will be absent to send her off to India because i'll be in Jakarta at that time.

Being in long distance relationship (LDR) is not easy.  There are so many things you have to face.  I know that and Im trying to give my best.  I've learnt a lot from this.  Learnt to tackle few things because i've to consider not only myself but also my other half.  Every decision you make, every thing you do, there are consequences. so, i've to be very careful to make one,

we cant see each other every day.  That's the pro and also the cons. Let's talk about the cons first.  We miss each other so easily. Ya lah kan x dapat jumpa every day.  But at the same time, there's pro to this which is x dapat jumpa, it's okay, we know we love each other when both of us are missing each other :)

Now, you're back in college for KI.  I hope you'll do well.  Limit yourself from going out every week or every day. haha. Don't skip your meals. Try to eat some, a bit of crackers maybe if you're avoiding heavy meals. I dont want you to fall sick.  KI is fun. That's what my friends told me so enjoy yourself for 3 months.

In July you're going to India.  Firstly, i'm sorry because i cant send you off because i'm in Jakarta maybe having class at that time.  Best of luck in India.  Trust me, everything will be fine for you.  I know you can do it.  Try to adapt to the new environment and dont 'sigh' too much.

Ure entering Uni means we're going to have less time together.  I know we're not going to txt each other like now or skype every night like we always do before, promise me you'll never forget me and still love me like the first time we bcme couple.

I'm sorry if i've hurt you before, i didn't mean to hurt you.  I love you so much and will always love you.  Take a good care of yourself.  Always be a good girl :)

I love you sayang

It is not so good, but i think it's just nice

And today the result came out. i arrived at sch very early coz my friend ask me to come early to go breakfast with her and other friends. so i came at 7.45 am like that. i waited for 30 minutes and she havent came. i decided to go to the staff room to hang around with the teachers. the staff room was almost empty coz most teachers were at the stadium for duty as today and tomorrow will be SMK methodist sports day for the year 2010. i helped some teachers in the staff room while waiting for my friends to come. then i met lawrence in the staff room. he invited me to go breakfast with him near chung hua primary school. ( coz he wanted to have breakfast with yee tsin maaa)haha i agreed to follow him. but then my friend came and i have to turn down lawrence's invitation. then we walked to the coffee shop nearby to have our breakfast. we talked a lot bout our result. scared of it, nervous..u just mention it..and we all have it..then i went to see my cousin working at celcom to get my new simcard. after that i walked to school and saw lots of people at the school compound. very glad to see long time unseen friends. we get our result very late. i'm very grateful that i get straight a's although not straight a+. i just able to get 8A+, 2A and 3A-. thanks GOD for the result. i'll work harder for my future. i want to thank my parents who have support me until this moment and teachers since kindi, friends and relatives. to my friends...congratz for having good result and those who are with average result, try harder next time and it is not the end of ur life. life has to be continued and learn from mistakes. mistakes are the greatest teacher in one life :) may we all will have bright future

later in the afternoon, i have to go to driving school for training coz tomorrow i have to sit for QTI-pretest. i arrived there at 1.50pm but the tutor only came at nearly 4. just imagine how long i have to wait for him. but i'm very happy tat i am doing less and less mistakes. i'm ready for tomorrow pretest!!yeah!!i went back home at 5 sumtink, then at home i have to tidy up my uncle's place coz got some ocassion there tonite. today i was just like robots doing lots of things non stop..urghhh..and now i am very tired. goodnite peepss...

Tears..T.T

IN

NO

Try to relate the three pics above..get the answer??hmm..



it's just like yesterday we know each other..and today..it's like the worst nightmare ever-to carry on with our own life now..neither of us want it to be like this..end up this way..i believe that..and i don't blame anyone..maybe i myself must look what i've done..like i've writen in the previous post..this post..look at the last paragraph..we cant change the reality..it's my fate..our fate..but i don't regret to be with u and to know u..we had a great time together before..and i hope we are still in contact and be close friend forever..i realise that love make people stronger..thank you for being with me..u r such a nice girl..take care of urself..u hve taught me a lot bout this life..but now..i keep thinking of u..u r everywhere..bcoz i always carry u in my heart..when the songs are on air..they make me to think of u..when i see ur fav car..it makes me to think of u..everything make me to think of u..i'll never get rid of u from my life..do well in spm and in ur life..achieve ur ambition..so tat u can add some more of ur LV handbags collection..LOL..i'm sorry if ive done something wrong..i'm so sorry..

even the candy could break into pieces and chocolate could melt..but the taste will still be the same and so do i..if one day i'm no longer myself today..i'll be the same guy for u..

i've lost my diamond but its shine will never fade..

miss and love u forever,
Haziq

wHY??

This song keep playing in my mind..idk y..just listen

Hujan-Ku Mahu kau Tahu

Di sudut termenung jauh
Mengenangkan nasib kita
Kita miliki separuh
Berbentuk hati cinta namanya

(Chorus)
Walau kau jauh
Ku sentiasa menunggumu
Inginku imbas kembali memori

Walau kau jauh
Ku berjanji kan terus tunggu
Dipisah lautan biru

Ku mahu kau tahu
Aku kan terus menunggu

Jaga benar gambarku dalam telefon bimbitmu
Jangan pernah sekali kau buang
Seperti cinta ini yang terbuku
Akan bersemi jua

(Chorus)

Terus menunggu
Kita kan bersatu
Terus menunggu
Ku mahu kau tahu

As you wishhhhhh...

♥It will be very nice if im talking to another girl, when ive done♥ talking, walk over and hug her and kiss her….let her know she’s mine and they aren’t

♥I'll get upset if another guy touches her and she may doesn’t like♥ it, but i'll try not to be overprotective though i care for you and want you to be protected

♥I'll make sure that i will make you laugh-alwaysssss....♥

♥Im all for u..i'll let you fall asleep in my arms whenever you♥ want

♥If you're mad at me, i'll not hesitate to kiss you♥

♥It's my pleasure to look in your eyes and smile-i heart u and im♥ glad for it

♥I've told u before..I will..Kiss you in the rain (girls love this)♥

AND..

I'm ready to do much more for you..
For now and always..

Peritnya sebuah perjuangan..

Permulaan minggu yang sedih lagi menyakitkan..biarpun sedikit diulit kegembiraan..namun..perasaan sedih tetap menguasai diri..tika hari pertama dimulakan..hatiku tersentap bagaikan manik-manik berguguran-terpisah dari utas rantai yang indah ke lantai keras..sakit bagaikan pantai ditampar alunan ombak deras..namun..cuba kugagahi hidup yang payah dipenuhi pancaroba ini..apabila hati dirobek oleh kekejaman diri sendiri..ya, aku kejam..membiarkan diri lalai dan alpa dimamah syaitan-syaitan yang nyata disekelilingku..ku biarkan diriku bergelumang selama berjam-jam lamanya di hadapan skrin yang tidak memberikan apa-apa faedah..ku biarkan diriku menonton kotak segi empat yang penuh pembohongan..ku biarkan diriku ditemani benda kecil yang berbahaya..insaflah wahai diriku..sesungguhnya..lautan mana yang tidak bergelora..bumi mana tidak ditimpa hujan..titik perubahan terhadap diriku kah ini??lagi hidup ku teruskan padah hari seterusnya..dilanda musibah..bukan satu..bahkan seguni gula yang menjadi krisis negara pun belum pasti dapat menampungnya..hasrat hati ingin melakukan sesuatu buat 'DIA'..tercapaikah ia??ya..tercapai akhirnya..langkah pertama ku corakkan dari minggu lepas lagi..perasaan malas ku hiraukan..diabaikan untuk 'DIA'..dua hari sebelumnya..ku dilanda masalah..bermacam-macam rintangan ku hadapi..apakah salahku oh TUHAN??Terima kasih ku panjatkan kerana semuanya sudah selesai..hasrat di hati sudah kesampaian..terdengar suara lunak dari corong kecil..hati melonjak kegirangan-tiada siapa yang tahu rasa di hati..ku berharap 'DIA' sentiasa mengingati ku sepertimana ku mengingati 'DIA'..kembali kepada permasalahan utama-setelah hati disembuhkan oleh sedikit vaksin kegembiraan yang jarang didapati..SIKAP-masalah utamaku..entah..mengapa diriku bersikap sedemikian..ku cuba untuk berubah bagi mendapat keenakan masa hadapan-adakah aku berjaya menghabiskan sisa-sisa perjuangan yang semakin singkat ini??doakanlah aku..ku berusaha..kita berusaha..gagal sekali bukan bermakna gagal selamanya..kata-kata yang menjadi tongkat kepada diriku yang lemah ini..terkejut bukan kepalang..apabila keputusan yang keluar membuktikan segalanya..aku leka..aku lalai akan permainan dunia yang penuh muslihat..ku biarkan diriku dinodai..ohh..peluang kedua tidak akan ku sia-siakan..PASTI!!janji yang kuungkapkan akan ku lunaskan..kini..ku sedar..dengan siapa ku berdampingan..belajar daripada kesalahan..ku merasakan..jiwa ini diseksa dengan kejam oleh makhluk asing yang seangkatan denganku..adakah mereka benar-benar ikhlas??ataupun sekadar melakukannya demi kepentingan diri??ku perlukan mereka yang benar-benar ikhlas bagi mengubati luka hati ini..kenyataan terpakasa ku tempuhi..1 antara 10 sahaja yang benar-benar sudi..ya..sudi mendengar isi hati yang kosong lagi rapuh..sudi memberikan semangat yang merealitikan angan-angan di kalbu..Terima kasih kuucapkan..kepada 'DIA' berusahalah..jangan alpa dan leka..belajarlah daripada kesilapan diriku..saling membantu..pulihkan semangatku..TOLONG..rayuanku..kedatangan mu ku tunggu..bersamamu adalah satu nikmat-mungkinkah segalanya berubah??semangat yang ditahap minima ini mungkinkah sekelip mata berubah kepada semaksima mungkin??hanya 'KAU' yang mampu..pengalaman mengajarku menjadi lebih kuat..tidak perlu sekuat superman..tidak perlu setangkas spiderman..tidak perlu segagah incredible hulk..namun..menjadi diriku sebenarnya adalah yang terpenting..tidak perlu ku menggunakan topeng untuk mencapai cita-citaku yang murni itu..dan..sekarang..ku sedang menanti ketibaan masa itu..

9th and 10 th ramadhan

so..finally..yesterday was my birthday..9th ramadhan 1430H..according to hijrah calendar..so..i'm 18 now..yeah..18..haha..wat is so special bout being 18 huh??emm..yesterday..as u know..i missed the match between man u and its closest rival..arsenal..later on the same day..i just stay at home doing nothing..most of the time i spend my time sitting at my desk and being like a fool..haha..wow..i'm a fool??so..stay at home till night..n sleep..zzzZZZzzzZZZzzz...the next day..which is today..woke up at 4 for sahur..then slept until 5.30..woke up and study sejarah..the tokoh make me feel sleepy..haha..then..watched television for a while..enjoy watching perayaan merdeka..SELAMAT MENYAMBUT HARI KEMERDEKAAN KE 52..then..suddenly at 9am..somebody called..hey..are u forgot that today we have training for quiz??GOSH..it's him..oh no!!!i forgot that today ive to go to his house for training..i rushed to his house..thanks to the driver..my father of coz..so..the training went tru for 6 hours.haha..from 9 to 3pm..tiring..at 12 he brought the team for lunch..as i am fasting..he game me some $$$ for raya shopping..haha..after tat..continued our training until 3.30pm..he sent us home..glad to be at home..i love my bedroom..u can guess what i'm doing after tat..so..berbuka puasa with roasted chicken..haha..so..now..at 8.42pm..i update this blog and maybe it will take long time for me to update this blog again as the shool is reopen tomorrow..hmm..dont want to go to school for sure..but government force us..haha..will try to keep updating this blog..

Siapa mengerti??

Cuti sekolah semakin melabuhkan tirainya..lebih kurang seminggu bercuti..sepatutnya hanya perasaan gembira yang muncul-seperti budak2 sekolah rendah apabila diumumkan bahawa esok adalah cuti..tetapi..entah mengapa perasaanku bercampur aduk..perasaan risau sering melanda hati..diriku hanya bertopengkan kegembiraan yang tidak berpanjangan..namun..tiada siapa yang tahu betapa seksanya batinku..apabila mengenang kembali apa yang telah ku lalui..semuanya mempunyai sebab musabab yang tersendiri..sama ada sengaja dicari mahupun datang sendiri..ku tanyakan kepada diriku..adakah ku lebih bersedia untuk menghadapi masa depan..jawapannya masih belum mampu kutemui..ah, sungguh banyak ranjau hidup ini..amat sakit lagi menyeksakan..siapa kata setiap pekerjaan adalah mudah??hidup ini amat sukar..kekuatan..ya..ku perlukan kekuatan..hembuskanlah nafas kekuatan dalam diriku..ku merayu..setelah ku amati..selama seminggu bercuti..ku lebih banyak meluangkan masa dengan gajet2 canggih ciptaan manusia yang alpa dengan diri sendiri..setiap hari kutatapi skrin komputer selama berjam-jam lamanya..adakah ia mendatangkan hasil??walaupun ku banyak membaca daripada artikel2 yang ada di alam maya..jika tidak menatap komputer..ku akan bergegas terperap ke dalam bilik untuk menyentuh konsol ps2..arhh..begitu melalaikan..tidak tahu hendak berbuat apa..telefon bimbitku setia menemani..menghiburkan aku dengan alunan lagu yang telah dimuat turun daripada internet-sekali lagi..aku melakukan jenayah-menyokong cetak rompak..Tuhan..sedarkan aku dari kesalahanku..walaupun dibuai lagu2 yang menjadi halwa telinga..syahdu..namun..hati yang kosong ini tetap tidak tenang..payah..memang payah..ramai yang mengatakan..kawan adalah teman yang paling bernilai..namun..apabila hati telah ditakluki seseorang..adalah sukar untuk mengawal perasaan jika PENAKLUK tidak sentiasa memberi khabar..PENAKLUK..ku perlukan dirimu di saat ini..ku amat memerlukan mu..waima sekalipun keakraban sahabat handai, rakan taulan, tidak dapat menandingi betapa pengaruh PENAKLUK sepertimu..duhai PENAKLUK..jalankan tanggungjawabmu..selama beberapa hari ini..beberapa lagu menjadi pilihanku..dan mungkin anda tahu apakah lagu2 tersebut dan berjaya mentafsir apakah perasaanku sebenarnya..ahh..keluhan daripadaku tidak terhitung apabila menjalani hidup ini..mengapa??terlalu berat untuk ku ceritakan..apatah lagi menanggung beban hidup ini..diriku hanya mempunyai keluarga, kawan dan dirimu..untuk berbicara kepada semua..adalah amat susah..jadi..ku luahkan segala isi hati dengan menekan butang2 hitam yang dihiasi abjad ini ke laman yang tanpa sempadan..tika ini..ku sedang menghadapi banyak persoalan dan dilema..yang paling utama..semestinya berkaitan dengan PENAKLUK-rakyat mana yang tidak bimbang akan PENAKLUKnya..minggu ini..ku telah lakukan sesuatu yang belum pernah ku lakukan..kelakuanku..adakah akan diterima oleh PENAKLUK??walaupun PENAKLUK belum mengetahui apa yang telah ku rancang dan ingin lakukan..namun..ku amat menaruh harapan yang tinggi agar perbuatanku tidak sia-sia..penghargaan amatlah ku inginkan..
manusia mana yang mampu meramal masa hadapan..akan ku biarkan segala apa yang mungkin akan terjadi nanti..kutadahkan tangan dan berdoa agar segala apa yang telah ku lakukan diterima seadanya walaupun tidak sempurna..hanya beberapa hari lagi..fasa terakhir hidup sebelum peperangan yang mempertaruhkan masa depan akan bermula..apa yg ku mahu..biarlah fasa terakhir nanti..diri ini disulami semangat dan tekad yang kental di samping sokongan daripada inti-inti yang memaniskan hidup terutamanya si PENAKLUK..Luahan ini ku akhiri dengan perasaan yang berbaur yang hanya dirasai oleh diriku..hanya lagu sebagai penterjemah perasaan suram diriku..berilah diriku pelangi ceria dan bersurailah dirimu awan mendung..sinaran mentari amat ku harapkan darimu..PENAKLUKKU..

Luahan rasa,
Taklukan mu..

What i feel..

where are u??i'm missing u so much..i hope u r always in good health..we seldom contact each other lately..make me to miss u more..in addition it is very hard to keep in touch..we r using different phone operators..should i change the same with u??..i know u r very busy..preparing for hari raya as u said..i hope u will have enough time for me later..i'm always waiting for u..i wait for my phone to vibrate and find that ur name is on the screen..ur birthday is just around the corner..next week aite??for two years we havent celebrate it together..i hope i can be with u and share the happiest moment of our life..i hope we can meet each other during hari raya..u r most invited to my house..still remember last year??when u came to my house??i rushed to change my clothes..wasnt that funny??i never expected u to come on that night..though it was really short time for us..i appreciate u for coming and felt very happy..u gave me the most valuable present on that night..thanks..plus how i managed to sneak out to have a simple berbuka puasa with u..wasnt that very nice??i will wait for u..i miss u so much..come back please......

it's all bcoz of...

yesterday at account tuition i sat besides timothy..well..i have known him for almost 2 years..we have being friends from last year..ok..some description about him..

• Naughty- always disturb people and make fun of them
• pro in computer thingy
• multimedia maniac
• soccer lover
• funny
• nice friend
• smart

ok..that's some thing about tim..wat i wanna tell u is that he makes me to fall in love more with TAYLOR SWIFT..haha..yeah..i'm in love with TAYLOR SWIFT..ive heard some of her songs before..love story..you belong with me..bla3..but know wat..yesterday while balancing the account he lend me his hp and let me to listen to taylor swift's song..how soothing the song is..haha..OMG..i love you very much!!!!!


i think the songs are able to lower my stress level..haha..

aint she's beautiful??