31122010

last day of 2010. happy new year. today will be great !!!

26122010

last time when u need me then u'll find me. same goes to me. we share our problems together. but now. when i try to tell u my problem and what i'm suppose to do, u r not there to listen to me. change huh? i'm not blaming u. or maybe it's my own fault. but for sure, i'm here to listen to your problem anytime again, or we can share stories like we usually did last time. friendship is meant to be full of challenges. it's our responsibilities to go through them together. i bet that's what friends for.

now i cant stand living without hearing any news from you. hope u are fine. come back soon pleaseeeee.

what are friends for?

unstable emotion

i'm fighting with myself. idk why. i feel that i'm having a war with my emotion. hmm. i've tried not to think about it but every time i refuse, it will automatically come. is it a sign that..? hmm. i would like to but, i'm afraid the same thing will happen again. goshhh. it has been a very long period i'm not feeling this way. God, please guide me.

Dorae =)

how will it be in the future?

Just reposting it,

from The Star Online : Blog

Why we left and why we will continue to leave...

Posted by: MS Mohamad

I read an interesting article today about a few prominent figures addressing their concern over the increasing UKM and UM medical graduates who have left the country to continue their medical practice overseas.

After reading the news for 3 times, I called a very close friend, an MD (UKM) graduate to ask his opinion on how the news might have affected him. He has been working in Singapore for more than a decade as a Consultant Surgeon with a certain sub-specialty

"Why be a slave in your own country, when you are a king in another?" He replied.

Indeed, if anybody would want to find a reason why all of us left, either after housemanship, after being a specialist, or even after sub specializing, and now, even prior to doing housemanship, they need not look at our payslip, or the wealth that we have gained overseas, but only to the Medical System that has been rotting in the ignorance and politic-based stupidity that Malaysia has been well-known for (in the medical field).

I have served the system for nearly 2 decades of my career, waiting for it to improve for so long, and only finding myself in despair, quitting with a 24-hour notice and serving abroad. The system is, in my opinion, keeping doctors, since the beginning of their career as House Officers to the end of it, in the lowermost priority. When I was working there, doctors are so ill-treated, while the nurses and the medical assistants are overpowering us.

I still remember the days when I was doing seeing patients and rounds as an MO, while the staff nurses would mind their own business, having breakfast in the pantry, or having gossip chats at their own leisure. My House Officers would then have to do merely all the labour-work, up to the extent of setting intravenous drips, and serving medications. If I am to expect the nurses, my patients would have been dead, or the work would have been too slowly or incompletely done.

When I was a House Officer, I had to run down 4-5 floors just to review a blood investigation of a dying dengue patient. The ward staff would either be nowhere around, or will say that he is busy (busier than the doctor?) or the answer I got at that time:

"Doktor nak cepat, doktor turun sendirilah, gaji doktor lagi banyak dari saya"

Even when I was a Specialist, the staff nurses had to be called again and again just to make sure the management plan for the patient would be done. I was already used to answers from them:

“I’m busy with something else"

“My shift is already over"

...it was routine for me.

The Medical Assistants were worse. They would hide behind their so-called boss, the Head of Medical Assistant. They feel hiding behind him would make them not under our jurisdiction, that we have no power to instruct them in managing the patient, that they have power to manage own their own. I've seen them giving medications not as we prescribed, performing procedures without our knowledge, as if they are the actual "Doctors". They are in their own world, and we have to do their job, taking blood, labelling samples, and even cleaning gadgets from the procedures that we have done.

Oh, but the ministry loves this group. They even let them run a clinic now, instead of upgrading the clinics already run by doctors. The government feels that the MAs are very important and should never be ill-treated by those big bad doctors. One time when I was a District Hospital Medical Officer, I was conducting a delivery of a baby. An MA insisted that I remove my car which was block-parking his car. I answered through the phone that I was busy.

He came to the labor room and yelled "Semua orang pun sibuk jugak, macamlah doktor seorang yang sibuk!”

It is insulting that an MA or a staff nurse claims that they are BUSY, as busy as a doctor? As a Malaysian Doctor, I have even worked for 72 hours straight. I have experienced working until my 6 month old daughter did not recognize me at the end of the week.

Is that how busy they are? I am very sure that they are so busy, that they can only spend 2 hours at the nearby Mamak stall, or can only leave at 5:10 PM instead of 5, or can only have 1 hour of lunch.

The management staffs are worse. I have to beg and plead so that I can get my on-call claims, of RM25 per 48 hours of work. While sitting in an air-conditioned office, they will at their own leisure, process my call claims so that I will receive them by the next decade.

The state health or Hospital Director would just give another inspirational talk (of bollocks) on team effort and beauty of teamwork.

That is how Malaysian doctors are treated in the government sector: without respect, without dignity and without significance. Why?

It is because we are bound by ethics to try our best to save lives, despite how ill-treated we are. We hardly have time to complaint because we are too busy or tired, and we would rather spend the precious time resting or seeing our loved ones. The burden of trying to save lives is on our shoulders alone. No MAs or Staff nurses would shoulder it with us. They have their own bosses: the Sisters, Matrons, or Head of MAs, which job description is to ensure that the big bad doctors will not ask their underlings to do extra work.

This is how the Malaysian Ministry of Health have treated their doctors. I am very sure that in each and every doctor, there is a slowly-burning patience in serving the Malaysian people, which will eventually fade and cause them to surrender to serving a place that treats them better.

A few colleagues who graduated from UK choose to serve there:

"The pay is more, and we get the respect we deserve"

Another works in Brunei:

“Here the staff nurses respect Malaysian doctors, and they are very co-operative" (He ended up marrying one)

A few are consultants in Singapore (working with me):

"Here we are treated well, we spearhead the management, and every else do their work to the best of their capabilities".

A few even enjoys working in Indonesia:

“The work-load is horrible since there are a lot of patients, but we are well respected by every hospital personnel" (They have migrated there for nearly a decade)

I am sure that people will see doctors as power-hungry individuals who want to be the boss in the hospital. Trust me, after having graduated 6-7 years of medical school, earning a DEGREE, and subsequently MASTERS, and SUBSPECIALITY, you would expect a degree of respect and being considered important. We are trying our best to improve patient's quality of life, or making sure he lives another day. Is it too much to ask from the system that we are important?

I find that Malaysia is the only country that is making doctors' lives miserable and treated like rubbish. It was never about the pay in the first place. It is about the treatment we are getting and the false political-based promises. Do you know that the so-called circular about doctors can have the day off after working 24 hours straight released JULY 2009 is not yet implemented? Do you know that the raise of UD 41 to 44 does not involve every doctor in the government service?

We are waiting for improvement. We have waited a long time when we were working in the system. Somewhere along the line we decided to leave and wait outside the system. Until the system changes, we will continue to work overseas, in countries which are appreciative of us. Trust me, Malaysian-graduate doctors are considered highly skilful and competent in neighbouring countries, and the 15 % brain drain is more significant than you think.

We will return when the system prioritize us and gives us the quality of life we deserve.

If it stays the same, Malaysian Hospitals would end up having Staff nurses and Medical Assistants as "Doctors", and we would have to send patients to Indonesia for an appendicectomy.

Hear our voice. We hardly speak, but will usually fade away from conflict (and fly to another place).

Pissed

went to sunway pyramid just now with friends-akiff and alyster. i will overnight at akiff's place tonight, as tomorrow will be no classes. In our way to his place i realize that i forgot to bring something. guess what, i forgot to bring my boxer. *gross. so, we went to sunway and the first thing i did when reach there was to find boxer. as i will come back to college tomorrow i planned to buy cheap boxer. what's the significance to buy expensive one if u just use it for a night? found cheap boxer sold at RM9.++. then when i was queueing at the counter there was a mother and her son. at first i didnt bother them. when it's my turn to pay, i heard the conversation between the mother and her child. it's english conversation and i bet she thought i dont know english. wtf!! the conversation was kinda like this :

Mom : u see, he buys cheap undergarments not like yours. you should be fortunate. i work hard for u so that u can afford those expensive brands

Son : who?

Mom : the guy in front you.

Son : oh. what's the different?

Mom : the materials. i'm a woman i know best about that. if u sweat. bla bla bla bla bla bla bla

bla bla bla bla. gth la b****.

she bought hush puppies brand for her son. though i'm NOT RICH like YOU dont think that i cant afford that kind of brand. U didnt buy CK to talk like that. i dont mind if u talk like that if u buy tonnes of CK garments. if u are very rich, please respect other people. plus, nowadays people know english, so watch out. dont simple talk behind people. I'M EDUCATED.

*Emo mode turned on ??

we have a chance, we should make full use of it

i want to fly like the kite. full of freedom. i want to be at the top. even i don't get to reach the stars, at least i can fly till i reach the sky. where i can see the brighter future of mine. fly freely, soar in the sky. that's what i want and i need the strength to keep moving on, LORD guide me to the right path

Back to college. i did these things...

after a week in KTT, i can feel the changes now. new syllabus which is harder, new apartment and i get a new housemate. For a week, KTT was like haunted place, i mean only 1 year student were available but now, it's alive again. thanks god. no more loneliness in KTT and i have my futsal team back. cant wait to play with them after more than 2 weeks didnt meet them.

First week in KTT was fun. i spent most of my time with my other 2 housemates, and we even went to malacca the historical city, to visit his grandparents. actually, we planned to have quick tour around malacca before we go to his grandparents' place. malacca has change a lot since last time i went there. last time there was no Dataran Pahlawan, no menara taming sari and it has change into Develop State in Malaysia recently-20.10.2010.

So, three of us walked around Bandar Hilir as if we were tourists and took lots of picture. oh ya, it was sunny day and the weather is very fine that i was able to test taking picture with my lomo loaded with lomography x-pro film iso100 which i bought at RM28 each. thought they are expensive, it's a relieve when i get to see the result. here are some of the picture taken with my sara-holga 135BC :

Malacca trishaw

Istana Melaka

Menara Taming Sari

Tombstone

if you see those pictures there are lots of different from normal film right?i didnt edit them. they are what i get from the processed film.

After walking under the sun for several hours, we went to muadz's place. had our tea there though we already have our tea at burger king. his grandmother's nasi lemak is really tasty. XD

went back to college at around 6pm and have to continue the life of a student.

This is what i did during one week hols

Spider web are all over my blog. pfftt. look like i've no more interest in blogging. life must go on and the same goes with this blog.

just came back from holiday today. not much changes occurred after a week holiday except for new apartment, i gained 2 kilos-not a big deal. and i'm homesick now, new time table, and i will be facing A2 this semester. from what senior told me, A2 is much harder than AS. idk what's going to happen this semester. just hoping that everything is going to be nice.

Spent my holiday in my hometown, sibu. but i was in sibu only for a few nights coz i followed my dad to kuching as he got works to do there. in sibu, my days started with i helping my family at my grandmother's place doing some korban. this is our third time doing korban at our own place. there were two cows being slaughtered. i was there to help my uncles to slaughter them. and i was there to chase the cow. you dont have any ideas how difficult it was to chase a cow. the second cow knew how to run away very well. even 10 men cant get the cow easily. damn tired man!!!

Grandma's Crib

second day in sibu, went out with my dearest cousin around sibu for photo outing though it was raining. visited wisma sanyan-the famous place to hang out in sibu. luckily it was not crowded as always. cant stand if there were too many people. dropped by at sibu heritage centre. nice place but they display the same thing as what we have in Sibu Civic Centre. or maybe they just transferred them to a new place?

At Sibu Heritage Centre-by nidzam

Third day, we went to kuching. arrived there around 1pm. after lunch and checked in, went out with my sister for lomo outing. went to kuching waterfront, old court house, sarawak museum, india street and kampung boyan. 3 hours of walking made me sweat like hell.

Kampung Boyan

Sarawak Museum

Clock tower at Court House

Sarawak's DUN

Penambang sponsored by metro. lok

*pictures taken by HOLGA 135BC

More pictures HERE

Fourth day, went out with alyster and affsya in kuching. having great time with them. went bowling where affsya won 2 out of 3 games. enjoyed swee kang ice kacang and loiter around the spring. i missed visiting my aunties with my family. sorry.

Fifth day, spent the whole day with my family. again, i went to the spring. first time i didnt buy anything. i didnt regret. there are lots more stuff i can get when i'm in KL.

Sixth day, home sweet home. went back to sibu. after reached sibu at 4pm, went to see nidzam. and asked him to stay overnight at my place. not to forget my nephew shafiq. had great time with them-my closest nephew and cousin.

Seventh day, it's friday. went to school to see mr wong. took part in tourism quiz training. this year they are going to KL-today for 5 days. nidzam and my sister are going too but they are joining the carnival. poor me, last time i only had a chance to go to johor. and last year was not my luck coz the quiz was held on the first day of SPM. DAMN!!

Eighth day, photo outing with friends at bukit aup sibu. woke up very early and i had to be under the sun for hours. Photos taken by Friends :

She's beautiful isn't she?

Dragon fly

*thanks to lutfi and hafiz saufi-Nikon D3100

Ninth day, today- arrived at KTT at 9am something. bored. homesick T.T

One week holiday is just not enough for me. i want to spend more time with my family and friends T.T

gusar

Entri terakhir untuk bulan oktober 2010 kot. dari bulan ke bulan makin kurang post kat blog ni. Sekarang tengah exam ada masa pulak nak post. pelik. baru satu paper lepas tapi exam fever dah sampai tahap kritikal. orang study aku tidur, aku lepak. orang kat library aku kat bilik. orang buat discussion aku buat tendang bola dekat futsal court. apa nak jadi? kalau result pre n mid exam cantik ok lagi. ni result macam !@#$%^&* aku boleh relax lagi?

lepas satu paper lepas ingat nak lepak dulu, kawan boleh ajak main futsal lagi, friendly dengan budak MIAT. main sampai 2-3 jam warden nampak lari lintang pukang masuk bilik. minggu yang malang. keesokan hari bila buka mata sedar-sedar tekak sakit. dah agak dah, petanda nak demam. makan panadol 2 biji tak bagi effect langsung. kalau demam macam mana nak study ni? next paper 3 hari je lagi.

tiba-tiba datang pulak idea nak cari koolfever. mana tahu berkesan. iklan dalam tv nampak macam bagus sangat. tak sampai setengah jam pun dekat library, keluar pergi mini mart beli koolfever. terbang lagi duit minggu ni. benda kecik tu pun dah dekat RM6 dua keping. lepas tu teringat pulak kata orang. tak tahu betul ke tak. diorang cakap kalau minum 100plus boleh hilangkan demam. bila 100plus tak ada cari la isotonic drink lain. apa-apa pun usaha je la. exam tak lama lagi. bila demam tak dapat study. kalau tak study result teruk. nak tak nak mesti hilangkan demam. waktu ni la aku teringat kat rumah. kalau demam memang dilayan macam raja lah. *aku rindu rumah.

doakan aku semoga berjaya untuk exam ni. penting sangat la nak dapat placement kat poland nanti. sangat pressure tengok kawan-kawan lain study sampai tak ingat dunia :s

aku bila pulak nak study sampai tak ingat dunia?

pergi jauh-jauh kau demam, aku nak study ni.

Je suis amoureux

Tomorrow will be my first week anniversary with Sara XDD.

It started last week when my friend kept on urging me to get to know her. I tried to overcome my own fear and at last i came up with full determination to get close to her. i couldnt sleep at night thinking of her and kept on asking myself what should i do?after a few days of sleepless night, my effort kinda work. she came to me last tuesday and we are officially together now XDD

sara

I'm into new business. Lomography. yeah!!

Buah cempedak di luar pagar,

Ambil galah tolong tunjukkan,

Saya budak baru belajar,

Kalau salah tolong tunjukkan XD

Malique feat Tun Dr. Mahathir-Layu

Fikir-fikirkan

This is the PROBLEM!!!

most of the peninsular people always think that we, sarawakians or sabahans hate them. even a friend of mine asked me before. why sarawakian hate them. u want to know why. i'm not saying all the peninsular people or 'orang melaya' is bad, they are good, i make very good friend with them. but there's a small quantity of them are too ego. maybe they think that they are better. please..we're malaysian and making this scenario worst is, the bumiputeras are fighting among themselves. this make malaysia under serious race crisis now. i dont want to say more about this. don't we suppose to support and tolerate with each other??our pioneer leaders had done their best to get us united under one name which is malaysia. we must help each other. not to ruin each other or keep on blaming among ourselves. here are two pictures which is a part of the reasons why we, sarawakians or sabahans HATE them. this post don't related to bring up racist issue or what. it's just to show that the REASON of this issue.

1st picture :

2nd pic :

found them somewhere in FB

Exam ended and holiday start XD

*sigh*

I'm stranded at LCCT-Low cost carrier terminal? now when my friends already went back, arrived safely to their destination, on their way now and not forgotten some of them are in the departure hall now. try to be as patient as i can. surfing the web, flashing back all sweet moments we had together yesterday. yeah, we had a very enjoyable journey yesterday. it was AWESOME!!sadly, two of our friends can't join us-me, alyster, am, wayne, yaya n izah XD.

after the lecturer announced ' put your pen down and stop writing ', i can feel the heaven though i may not get good result for biology paper 2. but, who cares aite. as long as the exam end and holiday start, students won't bother to think about exam stuff anymore. i can see smile on their face. nothing is better than finishing the exam as soon as possible :)

after leaving the main hall, we made our move to our own apartment. start to pack our stuff, cleaned our nest and did something silly. this upcoming raya really turn me on. i sang raya song loudly but of course i didnt finisht the verse . lol. then i waited for the organizing chairman-alyster to arrange everything about out exam-free trip to Bukit Bintang area.

They planned that earlier, like a week before our holiday, but i just joined them at the last minute as i have nowhere to stay-i'm taking a flight back to kuching the next day(today). our main event for that day was to watch step up 3D. only am and me haven't watch that movie. other 4 of them watched the movie already but not in 3D. we booked 5.05pm showing one cuz there was no more seat available for 6 of us in a row at 2.45pm.

yaya, izah, wayne, alyster, am and me

so we wandered around for sometimes. now malaysia is having sale. damn!! i'm running out of money and i need them to spend. hope this raya i will get a lot duit raya :) around 3pm we moved to BB plaza/Sg. Wang/ lot 10. the biggest spender for that day was alyster. he bought a lot and surprisingly am also spent some on clothes.

enough of the shopping stories. it's very common when we talk about people spending their money on what they like. let's change the topic a bit. so here come the funny thing. when we were at lot 10, on our way back to pavilion, there is a national geographic exhibition stuff. kinda actually. there were some blocks of wood with background pictures of pyramid, desert, trees, artic printed on it-so that people can come and take picture as if they are at that places. the funny thing was, there was a lady-around late 40's or middle 35's. she was standing in front of on of the block and asked her little daughter to take the picture. can u imagine that small kid grabbed a camera and tried to snap those pictures of her mom. she was forced to do that actually. as we passed by, we heard the mother yelled at her daughter. pity the daughter. she knows nothing.. we tried for not to laugh but we burst into laughter as we stepped out of that building. that was the main topic for that day.

next activity- watched step up 3D. what can i say is, that movie is so cool man!!!though the story line is just so-so. BUT, u will like the choreography seriously. damn cool!!the way their body move is really really nice. i'm gonna watch the movie again. and comments from my friends who watched that movie for second time were positive. they love that movie. the movie will be way more interesting if the story line is better.

after the movie, we went to carl's junior to break fast. unluckily, we didn't get any seat. so we walked around, bought mineral waters and just broke fast with mineral water. yaya requested to go to baskin robin's and her wish is granted XD while finishing her ice cream, we got a little time for camwhoring. we want memories of that day to be immortal :D again, carl's junior was where our next destination. yaya came up with the lucky charm of that day. she got num 88 for her order.

wayne, am, alyster, me and izah.-lucky num 88 is there

we really had a good time together. laugh together, story-telling session, and taking pictures all the time-is it??when we wanted to go to the toilet, we passed by a camera shop. then i saw a little girl was trying to take a picture of her mom and a woman with a handphone. and yes. her mother was the one who asked her to. then izah and i wanna laugh but we hold for a while. we stop walking and realize that the woman that the lady taking picture with was ziana zain. all of us were stunned for a while. then we talked to each other and kept on asking every one among us to talk to ziana for a picture session. after waiting for so long, the hero walked bravely and talked to ziana. guess who is the hero..hahhaa..like izah said, we did that just to make the two of our friend who were not with us being jealous. lol.

yes, we got the picture and we also gained people's attention. luckily it's in KL and they don't know us and we don't know them. lol. then we continued our shopping. i didnt shopping much that day. trying to be thrifty. lol. pak cik sham promised to fetch us at 11pm but he just turned up at nearly 1am. we spent our time waiting at A&W, continue our chat and joking around.

after pak cik sham fetched us, the journey to the airport took like 40-50 minutes and we reached airport at 2am. before that he dropped wayne and am at klia as both of them are using MAS airlines leaving 4 of us to be at LCCT. i'm not getting bored with alyster, affsya and izah. they are cool. glad to have friends like them. oh ya, at LCCT, we had our experienced to sit near the toilet and go online XDD

just around 4am we moved to starbucks and we met an unfriendly worker. pfft.. she is so unfriendly and all of us like pissed at her. until.....she interrupted our conversation and asked where are we from. oh GOD..she is from sarawak, and then affsya got a free drink from her. such a lucky day and maybe the luck of number 8 really exist. apart from having good day with friends, i have broken my own record, being awake for more than 24 hours. ^^ until when i can stand huh???

after sun arose, one by one of my friends departed to their hometown. and now i'm here alone.

ciao!!

maybe there should be a wall, separating what we want, our desire into two parts. letting only the possible one to get closer enough to ourselves. better make them to be as close as they can. thus, making us to be more enthusiastic in pursuing our ambitions. and in the opposite, the wall distances all unnecessary stuff from us. like letting those unimportant things to be brought away from our life? how good if our life is like the simplest unit of life-cell. it has the membrane which is selectively permeable to certain substance only. it can control what substance it wants and it don'ts. it uptakes what is necessary for its daily life process only and letting the unimportant substance to be left outside.

i realize that the wall really exist, but until now, i tried to deny the existence. The rigid wall won't collapse though i've put so much effort to make it falls down. still, i can't ensure whether i could grab the things that i want or not. so just let the least thing i want to be outside the wall, hanging around somewhere else. but if there's good luck, after completing all hard efforts, those impossible things to get will be my first priority. i will hunt for it first. perhaps the one and only. i should give less attention to the least impossible things for this time being. i must spend less time on it.

we can't change people mindset and just let karma do what it has to do :) we can't oppose our destiny, but we can hope that all sweet things that going on in our life is destined and may it lasts forever. i hope my karma will do the right things and my destiny is good enough to lighten my whole life :)

it's really hard to forget who's your first standard 1 class teacher :)

~cheers~

our life is beyond the sky. we do not know where it will take us

Happy 18th birthday to you :)

I want you X)

Roughly there is one more week to go before i'm going back to sarawak. I'm going to kuching first instead of sibu. As Kuching is my 2nd home my family has a tradition where we celebrate hari raya-eid mubarak in sibu and kuching alternately. So this year is to celebrate it in kuching..

Seems that i cant wait any longer to go back. I cant focus on my study now. Exam is still going on, look like i play more rather than study. My 2 housemates-muadz and amirul keep on advising me to study. Yeah..I know i should. But, this is me who like to play and SLEEP a lot. That is what the youngest in 13-1-A4 always do aite?Lol.
After this i must be more dedicated to myself. I dont want to let haziq ruin his own future. Never! Guys can u gve me chance for me to change :(

though my 2 housemates are like more studious type, we can get along very well. Thanks to muadz i really had a great weekend with u all :) sleptover at your place for two nights, being awake the whole night to watch tv series, went out for shisha and football. It's nice to get ourselves out from jungle for two days. I really appreciate that and. I am so lucky to know you. And sorry if i gve u bad influence. Lol
.

what make the weekend more special was, i could spend time with someone that i really like to spend a lot with before. Credit to muadz again XD we didnt plan anything to bring u out. But that's it. Never plan anything as most of the time, the plan will fail. Breaking fast with u make me feels happy. It's nt like last 2 years when we sit at different tables.Lol. Last time we seldom see each other and being together. But after everything had change, opposite things happen. At least we are having a very good friend relationship now aite??I hope to see and meet u more frequent. Can i?. Happy 18th birthday to you though there are about 4 or 5 more days to go. Now no need for me to go to courier to send u present lol make sure those presents are still in good condition. Thanks again coz spending ur time with me. Two days with u are not enough actually. We only went out for sungke and sahur bah.. :p

to my housemates : thanks for everything, both of u rocks!!Err..Can we go out again nxt time?Hahaha..Glad to have wingmen like 2 of u :p
till we meet again

p/s : i should sleep by now..Sorry. Hahahahahahaha

August talk

Urghh..luckily my blog havent died. After some trial updating my blog through phone which ended with failure i hope today it wont be repeated again. Fifth day of fasting. Im getting better here though in fasting month. Sequences of great story to be told. Is it? Urmmm..it is not exactly.

Im missing my family now. It's fasting month, and last time i used to sit at the same table with them for 'sahur' and 'sungkei'-sarawak's term for breaking fast. But now they are not here with me. Luckily ive 2 great housemates here-muadz and
Amirul. And not forgetting other close friends here in KTT.


First day of fasting i had LEGENDARY menu for sahur, maggie mee :-) my mom would kill me if she knows im taking instant noodle for sahur. Sorry ma!! But i still can forbid myself from eating n drinking though i only take maggie mee. Enough talking bout that. Let's proceed.

I bought myself a pair of futsal shoes-f5 a week ago and i just used it last tuesday. That futsal shoes nearly make me bankrupt. Luckily JPA is very kind that they gve me money. Lol. With that futsal shoes no need for me to play futsal with my jogging shoes anymore. Sadly, on the last day i used my jogging shoes for futsal, it's front part got torn up a lil bit. Sorry shoes..and now i have to get use with the new shoes. Team!!next target-jerseys. Im so glad that im a part of the team together with muadz, harith, acap and alyster. Maybe we're among the best futsal team in KTT. Lol. Talking about futsal, eventhough it's fasting month, playing futsal is a routine.

After going to sunway pyramid last week, Yesterday i went out again to pavilion with my friends-lawrence,jackson,y tsin,ying ying,maxine, adelaide and another girls who i dun know her name. Sorry.. Im glad that i could hang around with them. We watched movie-the expandables and went shopping. It's fasting month so i can save my budget for food. I just accompanied lawrence to buy shoes besides getting myself a new shirt. I tried not to be a big spender. Hope to hang around with you all again next time!

It's sunday and tomorrow will be monday. Class will resume and that's my weakness. In one week time will be my pre AS exam. Hope i'll done better than my mid sem. Muadz i need you..lol. Wish me luck for my trial exam.

P/s : next mission-spend less for food

A level mid sem

Hey hey hey =.='' zzzZZZzzz a month in ktt.. Ive learned a lot..just imagine that for my chemistry class, we've cover 6 chapters, biology 4 chapter and physics 4 chapters too..what else i can say..my class is going through extremely fast..yeah..really fast..as fast as my corvette, dodge viper in nfsmw game..lol..and at d same time the game is progressing well..still got time for game huh?

Ok..for this week, no more games n futsal or captain ball for me..im having mid semester exam nxt week..i dont expect it to be that early..but..thats it..i cant change anything..being a 1 year programme stdnt is really tiring..hardly for me to have fun..really?actually im having so much fun here..im not the study type..so i spend most of my time playing futsal in the evening..outing during weekends and SLEEPING when i am at my apartment..that's my main prob nw..i have more than enough sleeping time..i cant manage my time..haizz

I hope within this week i'll be able to control myself from overslept..hope it will end soon.

Good luck to me n study hard!!u can do it haziq!!

Old love story

Past few years i've known 'her'. After knowing her we made a very good relationship together. It was not an ordinary relationship. I put her as my first priority than other things. Most of my time was spent on her. But somehow, we cant expect the good relationship to everlast. I was sad. Really sad until i met another her. Maybe it'll be a bit confusing because we have two hers here. Lol. But nvm just assume the first one as her num 1 and the latter as her num 2. I wont reveal their identity for their safety. Hahahaha . After spending so much time with her num 2, i rarely have time with her num 1. So sad.
But now. After a few years, i really appreciate her num 1. After being in KTT for almost a month. I get in contact again with her num 1. So now i spent most of my time on her after i finish class. But one problem had arise. I'm addicted to her. Hardly for me to stay away from her. I've try my best to stay away from her. But i cant . I hope my relationship with her will end soon and i will totally forget everything about her. Lol. So mean.

However i still need her now to fill my leisure time. Thanks for accompanying me need for speed racing game :). But sooner i will once again leave u alone because study is more important. Hahahaha

What a lame post =.=''

Story from sepang :)

My first post in July and my first post as a college student-officially college student-dont take into account when i was in KMNS. this week will be the 4th week..wow ive been staying in Kolej Teknologi Timur for one month. Congrats to me :-) lol. Everything is ok here. Cute college, nice lecturers, friendly students and the most important thing is near-to-nature living place. Oh, my apartment is just above those classrooms and lecture halls. And not to be left out is our place is located in the jungle. Hahahaha. After 4 weeks being here i think ive adapted to this new environment. Maybe..

For the first week, nothing much had happened. Like school, here in college the first week is also the orientation week, where the new students get the chance to know the college better and have fun before being tortured. Muahaha. For the orientation group performance, my group task was to perform a talentshow. And i didnt expect to dance according to lady gaga song-bad romance. Maybe that will be my first and last time to dance. Hahahaha. We had so much fun during orientation week. At the same time i was making new friends from all states. Thanks god now i already have a large sum of them. After the orientation week ended, i join my sarawakian friends to go for an outing at midvalley. There were around 13 of us. What can i say about the outing was, it's awesome! So tat's the end for the first week.

Then for the second week, the class started but lots of class are cancelled due to the registration of diploma students from UITM and UPM. So, i can say that our first study week was a bit relax and free from books. Lol. During weekends, i went to KL to see my aunts and uncles. There was a wedding ceremony to be attended. Being a student for only two weeks i already spent my weekends in KL. Who cares. The class was not officially start yet. Not wrong for me to have fun right?

THIRD WEEK
The class went on as usual but less cancellation. Then, during the weekends, i just stayed at the college because i've no where to go until saturday night when i went to nilai for a concert-demimu al aqsa. Overall, i spent my weekends doing nothing at the college.

FOURTH WEEK
Classes is going on as usual this week. But there is an extra event will be held tonight. The indian culture society held a charity event named colours of hope to help a school to gain more donation if i'm not mistaken. I'm looking forward to be at that event tonight :)

P/s : i wrote this during my class. Hahahaha too bored

My last night in sibu :(

well, referring to the entry tittle and the previous post. maybe u know that i'm going to leave sibu tomorrow. i mean today.

as i'm leaving, my cousins and uncles took the opportunity by visiting me tonight to bid their last farewell. quite sad to leave them all especially my bestest cousin, khairul nidzam. though he is 2 years younger than me, but we're very close like brothers :( now i will seldomly go to his place to hang out and no more going out with him.

maybe these pictures will tell u more what's going on tonight :)

cuzzies

again cuzzies with my nephew in orange

this is wat we had tonite

simple dishes only

friend since kindergarten :) abdul rahman, he's also taking medic but going to russia

New chapter in my life :)

it took not so long for me to pack everything to bring to KL tomorrow as i already prepared some stuffs earlier. i wonder whether all the clothes i bring will be enough for me or are they more then enough??as i'm going to be at Kolej Teknologi Timur for only a year-having my Cambridge A-level there. i hope everything will be fine. some pics on my stuffs :

3S-sandals-shoes-slippers

enough or more than enough??

KMNS tetap di hati :)

3 bags are enough

so, i will be going to kl tomorrow. first flight sibu to kl. need to wake up early. ahhhhhhhh. no more honeymoon. no more waking up late. less fun. less enjoy and more time to study haizzzz. wish me luck friends :) i'll miss my hometown, miss my friends here, miss home cook food, miss sibu food, miss wisma sanyan hahahaha. maybe i'm going back in sept for hari raya but havent book the ticket yet. now the ticket must be so damn expensive. arhhh. biarlah..mahal pun mahal..asal dpt balikkk..uwaaaaaaaaaaa :( later it'll be hard to see me stick at my home as i'm going home only during holiday and if the ticket is affordable. LOL

but at d same time i'm ready to go to KL. haha.. extra two days for me as i'm going to register on the 28th of june. yeah. shopping spree??hell yeah!! LOL XD wait for me!!

oh ya..maybe after this, my blog will only being updated after a while. my laptop is not with me now. urghhh. screen prob and have to fix it though i had sent it last week and it still undone :( i miss u MBP

Learn from mistakes :)

let see, what am i going to write for this entry. ok let's start with the hot news first. maybe it's hot for me and not for u. depends... watched last night world cup qualifying match to enter next stage where only 16 teams are qualified. Italy against Slovakia. it's a very interesting match. one of the interesting match so far. though the goals scored was not exceed 7 goals like when portugal beat north korea.

I bet lots of people out there were on italy side as they are the defending champion. they have to play well if they want to defend the world champ title. but, somehow, i dont know what happened to them last night. maybe the world is now has become upside down. what??italy was beaten by little slovakia 3-2. it's nightmare for italy, the 2006 world cup champ.

slovakia played very well last night. i was shocked. i thinks lots of people are shocked to see the way they play. quick short passes which were done neatly during the games was one of the winning key for them. the matched was so thrill and i couldnt sit still while watching the match last night.

the slovakian start to get their rhythm after vittek scored the first goal. i can say that they controlled the game and after half time vittek once again became the hero. he scored second goal for his team before italy scored a goal and then the game became more interesting. both teams were trying to attack each other and slovakia got their third goal by kopunek which was the substitute player. it's his first touch and he has midas touch. he made italy to go home in misery. but the azzuri didnt gave up easily. they scored one more goal to make it two in the injury time. but it was too late for them. i feel sorry for italy which have to go back early from world cup final :)) sorraayyyyyy..

The hero-vittek

what we can see from the match is, the spirit of small team who fight with a bigger and stronger team can lead to a great finish. just see how slovakia-who was once at the bottom of the group can beat italy. slovakia can be very dangerous for other teams. so, watchout!! it's unpredictable. the slovakian are hero for last night. but for italy, they are just from hero to zero. maybe better for them to sit at home and make pizza :) next four years, italy should learn from their mistakes and same goes for other teams with big name. what important in team game is the chemistry among the players and not the quantity of how many stars in the game. believe me, team with lots of stars will go home earlier :)

Sorry lippi :(

Italy captain-cannavaro, see how sad he was