maybe there should be a wall, separating what we want, our desire into two parts. letting only the possible one to get closer enough to ourselves. better make them to be as close as they can. thus, making us to be more enthusiastic in pursuing our ambitions. and in the opposite, the wall distances all unnecessary stuff from us. like letting those unimportant things to be brought away from our life? how good if our life is like the simplest unit of life-cell. it has the membrane which is selectively permeable to certain substance only. it can control what substance it wants and it don'ts. it uptakes what is necessary for its daily life process only and letting the unimportant substance to be left outside.

i realize that the wall really exist, but until now, i tried to deny the existence. The rigid wall won't collapse though i've put so much effort to make it falls down. still, i can't ensure whether i could grab the things that i want or not. so just let the least thing i want to be outside the wall, hanging around somewhere else. but if there's good luck, after completing all hard efforts, those impossible things to get will be my first priority. i will hunt for it first. perhaps the one and only. i should give less attention to the least impossible things for this time being. i must spend less time on it.

we can't change people mindset and just let karma do what it has to do :) we can't oppose our destiny, but we can hope that all sweet things that going on in our life is destined and may it lasts forever. i hope my karma will do the right things and my destiny is good enough to lighten my whole life :)

it's really hard to forget who's your first standard 1 class teacher :)

~cheers~

our life is beyond the sky. we do not know where it will take us