unstable emotion

i'm fighting with myself. idk why. i feel that i'm having a war with my emotion. hmm. i've tried not to think about it but every time i refuse, it will automatically come. is it a sign that..? hmm. i would like to but, i'm afraid the same thing will happen again. goshhh. it has been a very long period i'm not feeling this way. God, please guide me.

Dorae =)