I hope and pray that you're mine to keep.

Ive no guts to tell anyone what i feel now and maybe i need someone to talk to.  I wish my dad is here with me so that i can talk to him in person.  He always treat me like his best friend and yes, i'm comfortable with that.  All things seem not right to me.  Hardly can focus on my study these few days.

Can i say that i'm suffering from lovesick?  Distance are torturing me right now.  I feel like you're getting further away from me or is it just my feeling?  Just hope that there are still sparks to ignite the fire.  Sometimes, i feel i'm just like a candle.  When the wind blows strongly, *puff the light goes off and when it's kept properly, the light stays.  I myself do not understand my own feeling right now.  It's too complicated.  All i want is to be with you, where distance is nothing to our relationship.

On this beautiful night, i gaze at the stars.  They are just like you-very beautiful. Shining brightly from afar.  But, looking at them make me sad.  Reminds me of how we spent our times together when i'm just beside you, just two of us :( people says distance can't separate you from the one whom you love, however, for me distance separate me from the one i love.  It makes me to suffer like this.  Luckily there's this feeling-missing you.  With that feeling, i found you inside my heart, very close to me.

I admit that i'm a weak person.  I cant endure this kind of feeling, how am i going to go through this when u're in india next year. hmm Just pray that i'll become stronger.

I miss you so much :(

Love you always