DuaKosongSatu

I tried to sleep, but i cant.  It is because either i slept in the evening or something is bothering me.

Yes, something is bothering me right now.  I'm not sure whether it's my fault or other way round.  For me, I didnt do anything wrong.

Maybe i shouldn't text you when you're with your friends at the first place.

Ive tried my best to response to what youve said but i failed and it hurt you.

If i didnt reply "OK" maybe we'll be alright.  But, the problem is, when i asked you question, you only response to my question.  I'm looking for a two way communication.  Next time, let's try this way,  you ask me a question and i'll answer only to that question.  In the end, you'll end like how i did.  Try to check your inbox and see whether it's true or not.  Prove me wrong if you think it's my fault.

It took you 3 hours to reply my text message.  But that's not the problem.  I know you're busy watching drama performance and sometimes, you also have to wait for my text message when i'm sleeping or playing futsal.  After the drama, you texted me saying you're sorry, still, that's not the problem.  Then i asked you whether the drama had finished or not, then you replied 'yes', i asked you what are you doing at that time, then you replied you're with your friend, i'm actually waiting for you to ask me something or tell me anything about the drama.  So i asked you another few questions, asked you about your dinner, your tomorrow class and then you only answered the questions.  This questions and answers session last until i didnt have any other ideas to talk about.  So in the end, i answered OK.  I'm sorry if the OK part made you aint' OK.

If it's really my fault, i'm sorry.

These few days, we didn't skype that much even on our first anniversary :( If you ask me whether is it ok if we do not skype every night, i will say no.  It's because i miss you so much.  However, I have to be fair to you,  I know you're busy with your exam which is next week so i gve way to you to study.  We spent less time texting and etc.  At night, when you said you're doing revision, i will stop texting you and ask you to text me after you've finished everything.  Yes, you did text me but i felt guilty because at the time you texted me because, you're still studying at your apartment.

Maybe from now on, we should continue texting each other only on the next day.  I dont want to distract you from doing revision.  I'm sorry if i've done wrong

I'm sorry that i've to post this after the 200th post :(

Note to myself : Jangan hanya fikir tentang hati dan perasaan sendiri,