Back to December

*Taylor Swift-Back to December*

So lawrence's blog brought me here, writing again after i left this blog untouched since last august.  I don't take blogging too serious and that's the main reason why i almost forgot that i owned a blog.

Life's wonderful though sometimes i've to get through the up and down of it. Study? OK. Family? GREAT. Financial status? WORRISOME. Love life? NANA :)

What i've been up to?

Thanks GOD i'm still a medic student, second year is treating me well so far except for this 12th block. ohh and i've passed my first year. campus life is still the same, except i've new people coming into my life-juniors. I'm quite close with a few of them. They are crazy. Totally crazy.

I've added 2 film cameras to my collection. Say hello to Olympus OM10+Olympus OM zuiko f1.4 50mm lens+ another lens which i forgot and a humble underwater plastic camera, aquapix which i've tried but failed.

I bought the olympus for IDR350,000. And IDR650,000 for the f1.4 lens. Bought it because it's very cheap compare to the same cameras sold in Malaysia.  And for the aquapix, i've longing to buy it long time ago. Thanks to a trip to Pulau Tidung where i thought it will be awesome to have an underwater camera.  Unluckily, the camera didnt function well.  Now, i'm planning to get one instant camera. Havent decide to get instax or polaroid.

To Nana, congrats for completing your A level and goodluck waiting for the result :) see you in 2 months time. I love you :)

Another 8 weeks for me to get my ass off from Jakarta. Then, Hello Sibu :) awyeahhh babyyyy

See you again blog if i'm free enough to write. Like i've follower to read what i posted here. puii

I'm excited to see you too :) cant wait for you to come home, but sorry for letting you down last night.  everything happened for some reasons.  I was too excited cz you are coming back home that i want to talk to you on the phone.  I know you're busy packing your things, but packing things wont take so long.  I'm worried why you didnt text me, oh maybe you went to see your friends or etc. i waited until 1 in the morning when i was trying to sleep, you texted me saying you're studying. It's okay and as long as i remember, i replied like how i used to and in the end, i got the goodnight wish which was just a goodnight wish. I didnt know how to react, so i just copied and pasted what you said.  If that caused your mood to go down in the drain, i'm sorry.

Worrying over something that you care the most is not a crime, or should i care less next time? ahh, maybe this is it. This is what a relationship is all about.  To understand both sides better.  No one to blame for all this

A busy weekend for me, going to be a volunteer for an event tomorrow, scared that i cant stay up tonight to call you.  It's our special day :) but i'll try my best.  I love you liyana

Perencah hidup

Untuk merasai liku manis hidup, perlu terlebih dahulu mengharungi liku yang tidak menyenangkan.

Setiap yang pahit adalah kunci kepada kemanisan yang dicari.

I've let my selfishness conquered me :(

"I must say that each and every one of u are very lucky to have that someone who really adores u. Give and take / Tolerance is the main key.. Do not let ur selfishness conquers u.. If you want him or her to remain faithful.. then just do the same.. Do not hope for a better person to come into ur life.. Both of u should try to be better.. True ♥ does exist." -quoted-

I love you baby

"My dreams became your future

 A pair of beautiful birds chasing each other

A love I could never get enough of

 You're the person I want to meet when reborn"

On that day,

I felt something is missing,

not just a part of me,

everything seem to be wrong,

but i cant tell what, 

weak, emotional wreck

Waiting and waiting,

when it came,

turned out it's not from you,

i've so much to tell,

to share my stories,

sadly, i've to keep it,

to myself

For eyes to see,

fovea must works well,

for ears to hear,

there're timpani membrane,

to smell,

one needs olfactory organs,

without ribcage,

lungs will stay still,

without joints,

the whole body cant move

I learned that,

for heart to function well,

it needs pacemaker,

to create enough force,

supplying blood to whole body

A damage to a lobe of a brain,

can cause malfunction to our body,

just imagine how,

whole system wont work,

without complete lobes

You're my pacemaker,

part of my lobes,

part of my eyes,

my ears, 

every cells and organs i have

You're my missing piece,

just imagine,

how will i be without you

I love you 

I'm sorry :(

I'm sorry I'm bad

I'm sorry you're blue 

I'm sorry about all the things I said to you

And I know I can't take it back

I love how you kiss

I love all your sounds

and baby the way you make my world go round

And I just wanted to say I'm sorry